Raging storms are all around us. Everyone that you meet, see or talk to on a daily basis are in the middle of a storm, just got out of a storm or are about to experience one. Don’t get me wrong, life isn’t always stormy but the storms do and will come. There are some seasons where there are non-stop storms and other seasons that are dry seasons
Do you remember that post about a month ago where I talked about being in the middle of a very hard time? Well, I’m still here, right in the middle. I won’t say that it’s gotten any better because it hasn’t. But what I have learned over this past month was how to accept what currently is and be okay with it. I still cry, kick and scream about the situation but now I am able to have my tantrums (hehe) for a little bit of a shorter time period and move on with my day quicker than in the beginning. Nighttime is hard, very hard. Sleeping has been difficult over the past month, I take what I can get. At night, it’s quiet and my mind has time to race and go over everything a million times. Nighttime is the ultimate struggle for me right now but it has also been an opportunity for me to find my strength. I’ve been able to find my strength in the midnight hour.
There’s strength in your faith and prayer (if you’re religious or spiritual), family and friends, yourself. You have to learn to accept the help and strength if it’s offered to you. I have a tendency to push others away when I’m struggling. If someone tells you that they are there for you, hold on to that and believe them until they give you a reason not to.
When I sit down and really think about how my life would be the year I turn 30, this is not what I pictured it to look like AT ALL. Life is funny like that. You make plans and have these huge elaborate dreams in your head and then….life happens. Life comes in like a tornado, sometimes without warning and destroys all that you have dreamed up in your head. Yes, it sucks and yes I’ve had to alter my reality more than a little. I don’t like it one bit. I want for a second for my plans to work according to how I plan them 🙂 But I know life doesn’t work like that. For the lucky ones or ones who were so closed off from the world, it may happen for. But for the majority of us, we’re constantly changing our plans because life is what happened instead. I never thought that I would be looking at others and wishing that I still had what I used to.
I have learned a few lessons while still being in this storm. You can NEVER take anything in your life for granted because one day you’ll wake up and your world will be shattered. Now I’m not saying that I’m in my current situation just because I took my life before this for granted. What I am saying is that I realized how good I had it, a little too late. Going forward I am going to give thanks and be actively grateful for that I have in my life that is good.
May you all find strength in your storms <3.